November 13, 2013

Today was a pretty good day. My best friend keeps being out but she never tells me. It kind of gets on my nerves. Oh Well! Tomorrow is the spanish trip to AU but she won't be able to go. I have other friends going but i feel it won't be as fun without my bestie forecast! Plus Chip is going to go which will be awkward because I am pretty sure his mom told him that I have a crush on him. He has a girlfriend which obviously sucks but I still like he the same amount. I wish he could just man up and just come talk to me and we could go out and we could fall in love and be happy. That is my dream! I just hope it happens soon. If not I just hope I can find the man of my dreams before it is too late and I just hope i will notice it when it happens. I am just tired of being alone!! I see all these happy people walking down the hallway holding hands with these huge smiles on their face. I was there once but I was terrified when people saw who i was holding hands with. I still can't stand the fact that I made that stupid of a decision. I just hope one bad choice doesn't scare off the man of my dreams. I hope he can still love me for me.